alright, ii cant sleep. not tired yet. LOL.
don's asking me to go to zouk, but ii am super broke.
so nope, stay home, watch my laptop screen feels cheaper. :D :D

tuesday was spent having lunch with clique, kinda a birthday lunch for cheese's twentieth. HANABI japanese restaurant for buffet lunch, which is mad expensive, of course, unless ~40bucks per person is considered cheap lah! (ps: if you are rich, just shutup ok!) :D we roamed suntec for super long & ii found out how damn bloody mad far the distance from millenia walk and cityhall mrt is. super FML. settled in starbucks for poker with crazy bunch of friends. LOL. :D :D

this is what we spam half the time. :D + many other good food, which the pictures didnt turn out nice. BOO!


babygirl & ii. :D

the birthday boy & the gift we got him & his free lunch. :D

the 5 of us. with linda back in cambodia. :D

And today, ii send my xperia into SE to repair & service & maintain. :D And SE gave me a courtesy phone to use. omg lah! you know, ii never knew got such services one la. ii thought ii will be phone-less. ok, whatever. so ii am using a lousy SE phone now, but ii think super nice to type on the keypad!! :D :D <3

lunch at DingTaiFeng with joey, before we make our way to goodwood park hotel to spam on durian pastries. fucking heavenly ii swear. if you havent been there once at all, die die must go ok! ii am going back there again, definitely. & of all things, ii got to leave my durianmisu & durian roll in office. ii hope it is still in the damn fridge when ii get to work tomorrow, please!

this is my lousy phone with good keypad. model unknown.

this is my durian snacks. (:

ok. cool. ii love this week. it's so packed.
thursday: should be empty. ii want to keep it empty. work at night & durian pastries for dinner. :D

friday: mad packed. ii got mahjong in the morning. joey will pick me in the evening for dinner @seletar. don is saying go down to rebel after his work ends at 11. woah woah! :D <3

saturday: morning & afternoon currently empty, just in case ii got drunk on friday night. meeting philip at night for dinner. :D

Should ii club on friday night? Or overnight mj? Or watch football & see my money fly away? ii like my busy life. keeps me occupied, ii got less time to think, it makes me happier in a way also. :D ii felt like ii have got a life, rather than doing the same thing over & over again. it makes me feel myself. & ii like it! it somehow aids recovery.

YAY! can sleep now. after ii decide which team to invest my money in, ii shall sleep & fly home watch soccer after work tmr again! =X

Hello loves! (:
havent appeared on this space for awhile.
many of you people must have stopped coming this space right!
but anyway, ii must say ii am amazed by how people respond to my blog post so quickly.
and how ii always think no one reads it. HAHA!
funny me, whatever.

holidays is ending very very very soon. tomorrow is thursday.
friday, saturday, sunday & TADAH, it's term2. projects influx. BOO!

post exams was spent in linda's birthday party.
& spent getting drunk. ok, actually it really isnt that bad when so many people around you got drunk. ii quite like getting drunk and high actually, feels fun! aiya, it just isnt easy to pen down those feelings in words. just know it is fun ok! :D :D we completed 9 bottles at end of the day. achievement. gin made me drunk. LOL.

clique got for darling girl a polaroid & snap pictures of ourselves. :D
we got to see the long-time-no-see angel, who has become even prettier now!
the 05girls and the 08boys and the dba guys went as well! :D
boyf was there too. :D
pretty crowded, but looks like there is little people because the place is too huge.
birthday girl has an awesomely pretty & big birthday cake!

spam those pictures now! :D

this is me on the day. :D

boyf & ii. :D

 
the clique of us 4 back in yearONE. :D

current clique. :D

the 05girls.

  

the fun & the drunk. :D

& the birthday girl. :D

-end- all pictures are on facebook already. ii am feeling lazy to type already. waiting for 2am now, ii dont know for what actually. ii just lost football. FML. it’s supposed to finance my life. damn.

another post, or sleep? it’s 1.14am now.

PS: ii wanna watch toy story 3! everyone says its good!

this picture sorta sum up all that ii am feeling now.
ii dont really like that sudden gush in emotions & memories.
it suck.

ii didnt like the nightmare ii have ytd.
ii didnt like seeing what ii have seen.
but ii know these are the things that keep me going.

heartaches, breakups, pain make people grow.
one day, ii will be fine all over again.

love & rs, is somewhat a scam. ii should stop believing in them.

on a side note,
HAPPY (belated) 21st BIRTHDAY TO
DARLING GIRL, LINDA!
&
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO CHEESE!

darling girl, thank you for being such an awesome girlf, always being here for the past 3 years! understanding me and knowing exactly how ii felt & everything! ii love you!

cheese, thank you for always being the clown among us, making us laugh with those useless epic fail pick-up lines; & for being such an awesome friend!

P/S: ii will reply to all tags tomorrow! (sorry derrick, yes, especially you lah!)

 
from the very place they originated from;
thank you for the gifts.
in the box, ii found a GUESSbelt, a BEBE top, a COACHwristlet & a COACHsling bag.
:D :D :D

something that ii cant live without now.
welcome to my life & being ard the past 2 or 3 weeks! (:

And PUMAevent today was tiring, but fun! :D :D
(damn damn)good pay. slack. face painting. 2 new friends. a PUMA top. starbucks. (:
if only the working hours have been longer.. .*imagine, den smile to self*

*picture shows my work attire! PUMAtop + shorts. (: (: comfortable + slack = FTW. (:
thank you royston & philip for job! :D :D

goodnights people! :D :D

we have a long talk.

ii said,
there are some issues between us. maybe we shouldnt talk. the relationship hasn't been fair till date. it isnt fair to you, at all. we should give the relationship a second thought, maybe ii am never the girl you ever wanted right from the start.

you said,
you are damn sick of me thinking this way. that you never minded anything, as long as ii am happy. that ii am not trying hard enough, to try to make a change in my attitude towards you & the rs. that each & everytime ii say you are awesome & that we arent playing fair, yet ii am not doing things to make it right. you said you are trying so hard to make me happy, hoping that ii will treat myself better and the rs better. you said many times you wanted to walk out of the rs, but you love me too much to do that, and see me falling back into depression and all. that ii think breaking up is a wrong choice.

ii said,
you dont know you dont know you dont know! while you have so so much faith in me, ii have none in myself. it feels so tough to even try. ii dont even have the energy to try. you were right, ii lost myself in the process. ii am never the me again, anymore. emotions and feelings overwhelm me, that my heart never really have a real say; ii can barely felt its existence anymore. maybe you & your friends were right, you should give up on me. ii realised it was me being selfish all along, to drag you into my messy life, just so ii wont die so quickly.

fact is, ii still cant bring myself out of everything. ii brought all the habits from my selection of drinks to my selection of food & everything into present. ii sleep with mario every night. as much as all these are the past, ii didnt have the courage to walk out of it at all.

ii am sorry.